these are the good old days
Posted at 05:52 PM

something in ailene's blog struck me. something about her being 22 and free and wanting the moment to be frozen...

it's great, isn't it when you're aware that you're in a good zone. that you won't just live through it with blinders on and find yourself 10 years later wondering what happened to the good old days. happiness is knowing you're IN the good old days

in my case, however, my early twenties were not my good old days. at 22 i stood at the edge of disaster and thought 'heck, why not?' and jumped in. thank God i got to climb out of the cliff about 6 years later, a terribly beaten and much chastised person. now when i see the edge again i think 'heck, i'm not doing THAT again.'

these, i think, are part of my good old days. the past couple of years have been good. no stupendous highs or lows - and for that i'm thankful. those 6 years in the chasm have given me more than enough drama to last me clear to 40 and beyond. this part of my life has been relatively calm and surrounded by great friends. some self discovery and tons of self acceptance. they've not been incredibly prosperous years, but years in which i have been able to afford a few luxuries and come to the valuable realization that, to paraphrase U2, what i don't have i don't need.

yeah, these are the good old days. thank God for them